Life has ped me by.?

You sure use a lot of words for someone who says they don't care. Go, the woods will give you what you need. It may be a kick in the pants. It could be a situation where you fully realize how much you value your life. Either way, you need to find out for yourself. No one else can just tell you. Even if they did, would you believe them? When you come back, you'll have something worth listening to, or writing about. You might even like yourself more. The real question is, "Are you stronger than the excuses not to have this quest?"